I've been putting off writing a blog post, particially because the prospect seemed daunting, and, probably mostly, I feel like I haven't really had anything to say. Or at least anything useful, intelligent, and worth reading. While so many blogs are bright, sunny, and "OMG I love my job!" I am coming to this as an exercise in sharing. I have had many ups and downs the past few years, and have tried to push forward, despite crippling self doubt, terrible jobs, no money, and bouts with depression.
But I want to share. I want to share the photos that I take, and the journey that I am on. I started out thinking I would be a fine art photographer, and would wow people with the stories I have to tell. I am now working on moving that mindset into a commercial sphere. This sounds counter-intuitive, but I really think there is space for someone who wants to show people at their not-quite-perfect, but, hopefully, at their most genuine. My goal with this blog is to share with folks projects and images as I finish them, and hopefully have a meaningful conversation about them as they are posted. Some will be simple conversations, while others will be more challenging, as I work to engage myself, my peers, and my environment. While I have these high hopes, I really just mostly chase my dogs and partner around, which is what I did this evening.
My partner was laid off last week, and this has kind of thrown our lives into chaos. We are looking at moving away from my beloved Montana, which hurts more than I even ever thought it would. I love this place. I love the mountains, and the hearty, introverted people. I love the biting cold, and the harsh environment. I draw inspiration, power, comfort, and joy from this place. And now, I will have to leave it. This move will not be right now, but is imminent. In the meantime, I have tried to find solice in soaking up this place, and really embracing it's beauty, to hopefully sustain me as we move to a flatter, more populated area.
Every evening, around 5, we take our dogs out to the park to run around. It is as important for us as it is for them, as it forces us to leave the house and walk. When I looked out the window of our little house and saw the pinks just starting to show in the sky, I decided to take my camera with us, and subject my little family to photos. Documenting our lives here has become important to me, so we can remember how grateful we are to this place. As Chris moved ahead with the dogs after dutifully posing for photos, I stopped and let the beauty wash over me, and set out to document it. These are a few of these photos.